Feeling Alive.

The days when we feel are we alive? Does our life have any purpose? Does it? Why do we feel the way we are feeling at that very minute?

Then we undergo the severe introspection part, try seeing life from every point of view available. To know are we worth something. But what we do in process is start viewing us from the others’ point of view. Thereby ending up doing things what others will like us to be doing. But this is not the way we want to live, if given a chance. Living on our terms takes guts, as lapses of loneliness will also be following. There might be strings of losses and misery making us question the path we have chosen. But never we must feel conquered. The soul is unconquerable, be it any number of problems or tensions in life, we must not be afraid. Taking the pain along and standing up for oneself, keeping the belief and marching forward.

The day might end and begin again, but we sit in the kingdom of our struggle, smiling.
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.
~ Invictus.


Finish Line.

There is a sense of calmness all around us, when we are just about to cross the finish line. It’s as if the world has stopped before us, and glued their eyes towards the line with a surprising silence in their face. A mood of victory is about to begin and doom of sadness is about to fade out. Those seconds are the most precious part of one’s life, they stay with us till we rest in peace.

Then comes the moment of victory, the first person to know is oneself. This was never about the result but the journey which was undertaken for the result. There lies the beauty and no one knows it better than oneself. The effort is declared a miracle. But the fact remains that it was the relentless effort which made the victory look like magic.

The final instant, before the fireworks begin – we look up, trying to find someone in midst of the cloudy sky. There is a smile which follows the search as if we have found someone in the infinity above us.

We did indeed find someone, we find ourselves along with the people who have supported us in every corner of life; they are looking upon us and smiling. And then we smile back.

Mist and the life ahead.

Inspiration comes from the most unexpected places; the ploy is in seeing them the way they have shown themselves, that is in their purest sense. The roads which are not taken have a layer of mist surrounding them, getting them a tag of being haunted. In reality, we seriously don’t know. The only way ahead is to pass through the mist and look the castle standing ahead of it. The trick is there may not be always a castle waiting to be occupied, it could be a barren land with no person around. Now comes the inspiration in the small things part – we did get a free land with no one to stop us in our adventure. And who knows, we might even build a number of the castles being talked about. It’s just in the perception, anything and everything is worth trying and even more worthy in failing.

Its not the failure which haunts us but the will, which we search for, to rise again. The task is not daunting as seen by or as shown by, its merely the mist which is sinking in the trauma. We all know what lies ahead and that’s the reason we move. By chance we don’t, there is another check which starts acting. The place gets so used to that we start feeling to suffocate, it’s as if there is no oxygen left to breathe. What next, we move. Don’t know where but the will to live does take us to some place, surely far away from the status quo. It might happen, though a slight possibility, that the mist might get lighter and the journey ahead more easier and clear.

Let us put it in a simple manner – Castles are not built on air, but on the very land we live on. They need not be magnanimous to others but to us. Life gives us what we look forward for and its upon us to decide. Image



Life’s Endless Loop.

“The obsession of making a mistake in future, makes you commit one in the present.”

Walking down the lane with different voices raising inside my head, trying to curb them by pushing the earphones deeper. But the voices keep getting louder be it the favorite song which is running on the loop. The reason is quite simple, we never stopped thinking about the stuff which we didn’t want to. It’s like running in a closed circle, faster one runs faster he lands up at the same place . 

Suddenly, i find a van charging towards me from behind, and all of a sudden i start running to save my life. The van outpaces me easily, instead of bouncing me off, it makes an abrupt stop. The backdoor opens, throwing high intensity of light which blinds my sight for a while. And when i regain my sight, i am in the bed sweating. Trying to calm myself down and in a process of getting something to drink, i venture out of my room. A strange shout of ‘Help’ and then a sound occurring at the very next minute “Run”. Then there are these loud footsteps which increase their intensity with seconds ticking on. Next moment, I am running again, don’t know why. As soon as i open the main door and take my first step out, i experience a fall into a dark, deep pit. Then i wake up again…

These situations which gave me a nightmare over a nightmare are nothing but problems, problems of one’s life. At first we know what we are having a problem with and if we allow it to grow on us then we would only forget what really our problem was and reason we are running for. Stand up and face the problem with its horns. Only by toppling the problem we grow, not by avoiding them. For that we need the most important friend of one, “Hope”. Hope comes from believing in oneself and therefore its us who decide how we plan our life to be. It can be that highway journey of your dream where you see no repetitions or a tape which is running on a loop for ages. Choice is all yours



State of happiness.

Being a Liverpool fan, I was amazed and happy the way we are winning and trying to eye our chances on the title. Going through the replays of the matches to seek a glimpse on the goals, i found a video dated 2005 champions league final, and the reaction when Liverpool wins the cup among the supporters is so exhilarating, filled with energy and joy. On the whole, it’s just a match, no one gained anything in their pocket but they did have their heart filled with joy. These are some of the little happiness which we look forward in our lives, which on a cumulative provide us our happiness score.

Happiness score is closed in a box which is kept in a secret drawer in a place in our mind, essentially the creative part. It keeps ticking when we feel something happy from bottom of our hearts. The feeling can be such, you might fall down laughing or even get tears and also the ones which are very silent but very effective. Lets get a peek in the world’s treasure of happiness.

Instance 1: < being a sports buff, bear with me another incident> Living in a hostel, you meet with diverse sections of people who you get along and become friends for a lifetime. So there are people from different locations, all gathered in a small room to watch the World Cup final (2011). Then we see Dhoni climbing forward and dispatching the ball for a six, and the room erupts in joy. People start hugging each other, fireworks had also began, on the whole there were smiles all around. That moment seeing so many people, in which i didn’t know a few, dancing and hugging together irrespective of knowing each other or not, that’s happiness.

Instance 2: I was seated at this restaurant and was waiting for a friend when i saw this incident. A table next to mine, there were seated a young couple who were in their mid 20’s i think. They were having some kind of conversation which i chose not to listen, until violin which started playing near their table. I moved myself towards them, to see guy pull out a ring and bend over on his knees, proposing to her with a trademark Hindi song which i think the girl loved. The expression which the girl had, the eyes going wide open, jaws dropping down and the hands trying to cover her mouth so to hide her excitement made us understand she didn’t expect that but was more or less really happy. The nod which she gave made the guy close his eyes, placing his hand on his heart and giving a small smile to himself, that’s happiness.

Instance 3: A village was recently provided with electricity and the villagers, especially the ones who were old, didn’t know much about electricity. And the day power was passed on to the houses, the light which illuminated from their houses gave different but wonderful expression on their faces. Filled with excitement, curiosity and emotions to the thing they have seen for the first time and falling in love with it on their very first sight.

These are varied instances and different spectrum of happiness but the beauty lies inside, which makes a person to live a day more and see the world more passionately than they ever did. Life does teach us a lot of things but the essence lies in giving back what we learn with a higher degree of compassion and efficiency.

So keep your happiness meter running, doesn’t matter the size but what matter is in accepting every single thing with our arms wide open.



The Driving Enigma.

Magic in you arises when you select your passion as your goal, in return you simply end up doing wonders. The fascination which attracts you, which pulls you along and which makes you dream, thats your passion, thats your destiny. Different paths will lead you to the same position, with a few extra steps in one while few less in other. There would have been instances when you might have ended up staring some narrative with your eyes wide open and would be pleased to listen to it once more. Longing for the fascination drives you to achieve that narrative and become part of it.

It would be pleasing to achieve but on the other hand disheartening to see it fail, nevertheless the struggle must go on. Small steps make one capable of the giant leap, in the same manner, it’s sub structure which defines the strength of the superstructure. I would like to take one such narrative which is way closer to my heart.

People say that solidarity is now not essentially provided by religion but it’s the national sentiment which provides the essence of the collectivity. Indian nationalism is no less, the patriotism which binds people is immense. I am no different, though a globalized world i along with others dream of seeing our nation take large strides in development and become role model for the existing nations. The dream is in progress for its fulfillment and one day we will find our dream a reality.

It doesn’t happen overnight, but zealous hard work is required. The road is long but we do have the belief that success is within reach only with few commitments which we must promise to fulfill. Success won’t occur if the diversity of india is not involved, so we require an inclusive march towards the goal. And national Interest must be prior to our self interest. Democracy doesn’t stop at voting, but at making sure the system is accountable to every vote. We must be the change we want to see, then only success is within reach.

Ending with quote which is quintessential to the above account:

“Magic is always within you, it only requires a spark to see how beautiful it crystallizes.” 



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